I wish I could take back all the evil things i’ve done in this life. I want you to fall asleep with me again, I want you to hold my hand and mean it. I miss all the times we had together. I wish that we were going to be creating more new memories and taking pictures so we could remember those memories forever. Wen I die I know i’m not going to have been the person I wanted you to remember me by and that is what hurts the most. everytime I look at you all I can remember is how much ive hurt you and how sorry I am. I hope one day you’ll forgive me for all the pain i’ve caused in your life. for all the times I pushed you down or yelled at you. I was so stupid. your so precious to me I don’t know how I ever even let myself do those things. I look back now and all I can think of what a monster I was, all the friends ive lost and now you. what a mess, I hope you are going to go places with your life.. well I know you are because your so beautiful and talented. I hope you read this and change your mind. I don’t know what else to do but respect your decision because its what you want, I guess its just hard accepting the fact that you love someone else, especially whey you know im clean and not the person that made you fall out of love with me. I came back to show you I loved you, and not just to do that but for myself. I thought youd appreciate that, maybe im just stupid. I will always miss your love, your voice and the way you touched me and gave me butterflies when youd look into my eyes.
Even the dead can color their world.
Good night Alexander :) may you sleep well, wake up refreshed and may tomorrow bring you closer to your success in this lifetime and the next.